The Swan

Far from my sky

Flying with the claws clung into the twilight

You deceive the horizon with your fluttering wings.

Wings so free.

It's the earth moaning under you

From sadness and darkness

My wintry breath alienates itself

Venomous arrows will pierce through my chest, white bird.

Far from my sky

From your death I shall not hear

Flying with your claws clung in the twilight

I forever believe you will

Be flying.

Steps

If a secular cry shattered the greenness of your eye

I would not lean to pick up the emeralds

 Instead, I would step slowly on every star you have put to sleep

I would feel the grief of the sea in my foot, the strength of your glance drowned in the ground.

Or cut myself in green shards of glass

Bleed my dreams upon your eyes

Filling your eye orbits with us.

Separation

The angels had left their prayers into your hands

Suave petals blown in the wind – your lips

And the existence – unknown

The torment of the incoming morning was crying inside my sleepless eyes

That you should have filled with chimeras...

That you should have left without a word...

Without a whisper...

Only with malicious silence and a bitter kiss

That I did not know it was to be the last one.

Loss

 In the dizziness of our arms and bones

I try to remain, despite of your leaving

I will not look for you tomorrow

The long night will stain you

And the stars will glow only for me

The morning will rise for you:

To grasp your breath – to blow the wind!

My eyes scorched by the stars will weep

Upon the dust of your body

I will make love to that coldness, even if it is my last fire on earth.

Full moon into my eyes

 The night is breaking into infinite lights; I am so far away.

Far behind, the steps are leaving their traces where the moon is scratching its skin in the dark…
The stars are breaking into the night’s eye lashes, as you unconsciously obey my being.

I’m trying to see you
Until I’m carrying myself up to deep skies,
I’m hitting your frozen endless blue.

I’m trying to feel you
Until I’m wrapping myself in hells
I’m baptizing into your ardor’s wish.

To know you…

Oh, there is no life beyond the attic;
Shades of insanity…
Oh, there is no hope without pain;
Oh, no! Never the same…

Never in the same place, but far away from me.
Closer to us?!

The night is full of so yours:
There is my painful peace;
There are the angels laughing their demons;
There, where the scared souls are in need.

I have laughter in my soul and they are playing.
As I am playing with the images far behind the windows.

You’re missing…
And I have to finish playing…

Redemption

 On this morning with hollow eyes clung deeply into the sky

I believe you are the perfection of the solitary man.
In order not to ascend to your eternal heaven
I will eat from your green - may eye
I will feed my desire with the raw blood of a wax throat
And with the dead coldness of a beast's claws
And the moment you hold me with your bloodily arms
Let the angels' grace rain from the sky singing.

Emphasis to the coldness inside us

 Barefooted we were running through dreams

As if we ran in the mud

Defeated dreams at the edge of a world are pulsing

Sometimes sad, sometimes mellow

The angels are struggling with their claws clung

Into us

Lonesome griefs betray

The glance...

Blood flowing from

Limbs

From memories here comes

The venom

Slowly for sleep my hands

Are aiming

It's night

And it's foggy...

May

I have dreamed

That I met you on streets unknown/alien to our certainly separated set-apart beings

Walking with small steps, burdened, thoughtful.

Collecting earthly flowers in your thrilled soul.

I was watching you with my pulse raising

And the cloud lengthened howling

Above the blackened earth, beyond the endlessly doomed sky

I remembered...

Your hair dressed with the same summer, with the same orange trees of May.

If only you could cross my path again

I'd later laugh, I'd sadly cry,

There is no more another May

With yellow lilies, stolen at the wedding buried under the linden tree with it's flowers shattered

With its years carved on the gravestone

From the future now, I silently watch; the sky is red and waiting.

The morning is tired; from the night scarcely she emerged

With crosses waiting for redemption

With Christs awaiting for crucifixion.

Sleep

The turmoil cuts into me as lions cut into the stars.

The blood of your kiss poisoned my lips; poisoned the rivers of my eyes. Wine is what I see now. I see drunkenness...

And my lions fell asleep.

Pick up a star from the sea for me, a bouquet of winds.

Sell the morning to me!

To awaken my lions, to be able to sleep.

Some o' clock

 We met on the edge of the abys, we closed our eyes, but in the air we could feel our common smile.
We huged our hands, we could feel each other's heart beats and we jumped.

It was an LSD flight.

Now we can find our bodies lying on the ground and the tears are mixing with dust and blood.

Danish Night

The starry night brings me the clarity of your skin, of your bones.
And smoothly my fingers are shivering, happening above the perfect shapes, which is you.
The quietness spoils itself darkly between our abandoned - to - earth bodies.
I am breathing-in your love as a dragon burns the angels' eyes.

Your arm protects the chastity of the the nightly sacred moment.
Without you I would burn, I would disappear.

But you are sleeping... And I can't help myself loving you.

For Alex

It happened to happen when I didn't expect it to happen. Night lights around, lots of people, drinks and glasses, people laughing or trying to kill their loneliness. Dancing through the tables, sitting on a soft bar couch, cheering...  he appears all of a sudden from the night, from my dreams, maybe?
Uf, good looking... Oh, nice face shapes.. Hmmm... Nice body. Ups, hell yeah, really nice body. Heart beats: really kind eyes, cute sexy smile, BEAUTIFUL hands.
Reality strikes in: He is with another girl! He sits down and starts talking to me, keeps talking, asking questions, ooook! he is annoying! But still hot.
I say goodbye. Not sure when the emotions he created in me vanished... and after how much time I completely forgot him.

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